one of those days.

can i get a cheese burger w. extra doubt? today is one of those days w. no direction. it's the day where you know everything that has to be done, but none of it feels like it's worth doing. it's one of those days where it feels like nothings going right and there's there's too much on my plate, when in reality, there's nothing wrong. nothings happening to me. my life is grand. but that's not how it feels. it's one of those days where it's just really empty. there's an anxiety. but amidst all this, there's a calm.

there's an uneasiness about it. my stomach is turning. it's the same feeling i get when someone is chasing me in my dreams. needless to say, i'm asking the same questions.

"why can't i just get away from all this?"
"why is this happenings to me?"
"how do i make things better?"

but when i stop, above my panting from the chase, i can hear the whistle of the wind. it's one of those days where you take everything in. it's one of those days where everything has more meaning. this is what it means to feel. the pain always hits home harder than the joy. the pain is deeper. the pain is more heartfelt. this is what it is to feel. this is what it is to be human. this is life in this world.

everyones running away from nothing.

one day, we're all going to wake up. most people will find that Satan didn't pay the electric bill, so there won't be any air conditioning for a while. a long while.

hopefully, when i wake up it'll be w. all my loved ones. i'll be in the crowd in the clouds, when i open my eyes for the first time.

what's wrong w. me? i think it's just one of those days.

thank God i have church tomorrow.

-Dan.