Sunday, December 27, 2009

gone.

today is goodbye.

i'm off to see the girl i love.

i'll see you next year,
friends.
family.
new jersey.
blog.
stress.

-Dan.

Tuesday, December 22, 2009

lovely.

who do you want to be.

allow me to set the scene.
mediocrity follows me
into a dark alley.

i struggle
as his tail rattles.
is the poison of this
snake my fate?
i ask as
his fangs shatter
the callus
that i've developed
in the battles
we've had many times before.
generations ago,
when we strived to be more.
and we weren't enamored with the allure
of being a culture or society
that never defined itself.
instead we whore ourselves,
and allow it to be so that we
are defined by everyone else.

the question I have to ask is:
if I hold myself to the standards of the masses,
what makes me different from any other
poet that passes.
i will write
and it will be like bandicoot
when it crashes
through your front door like the kool aid man.
that's me.
all these others are poets are just lemonade stands.
i refuse to bland.
i refuse to be a copy of shakespeare, twain, angelou,
and the rest of the pulitzer prize for poetry gang.
i will be dan.
no ifs or ands.
no buts.
no question marks.
today. it starts.

-Dan.

alg/trig final.

so i spent all weekend/night making a cheat sheet that we were allowed to have.

i filled that bad boy up w. everything i needed to know.

then i forgot it.

-Dan.

Sunday, December 20, 2009

it's the best day ever.

said spongebob.

wise words from a decent man.

i woke up and left my house @ 722 am on saturday. the first time i've driven in anything deeper than flurries. luckily, i got caught behind snow plows on the expressway. they were slow, but my drive was safe. cws thanksgiving was good. ronick taught well. it was nice. then devotional. then practice. then food. then everyone started splitting up. me, mike, jp, ronick, dee, jr, eric, ivan, donald, jaime, and lynn stayed @ the chapel over night.

we shoveled a lot. i took 2 hours to bury lorrenas car in snow. we had 30 minute shifts to shovel, then took breaks while other guys shoveled. we set up a pretty intricate system. we had a heater to dry everyone's clothes who were on break. all night, cars would pull into the parking lot, then get stuck. then all the guys would have to gear up into their wet clothes, plastic bags over their feet, gloves, hats, hood, etc... and we would have to push the car. my back is really sore cause of the shoveling.

we ended up hanging out. talking a lot. connect 4. imagining what feljohn was doing. eating chinese food. shoveling. that was pretty much my night. i ended up sleeping @ around 2, i'm guessing.

i woke up @ around 5 something to the sight of dee beating up a tired ronick. i lol'd, but went back to sleep.

then eric woke me up, saying it was 650 when it was only 550. and so i went back to sleep.

on a side note:
all the guys smelled like cheeks, because we shoveled all night and no one showered.

i woke up. ate some breakfast. set up my offering and everything. i had to go to my car and get the shirt i was planning to wear later. i had to leave it in front of the heater for our shoveling gear for about 10 minutes, because it was frozen stiff.

i changed straight into my toga from the clothes i was wearing.

exhausted, i went upstairs and prayed for strength. i prayed that God would accept and be pleased by the sacrifices everyone had made over the last 2 days of just getting to church. over the last week of devotional prayer. over the last months of practicing our hymns. over the last year.

through God's blessing, it was a great year end thanksgiving. God was truly with us today.

Afterwards, we all ate food. changed. and played in the snow for what seemed like hours. bro marlo got stuck for like 8 years in a deep ditch. bro G.V.M. saved him. i cleaned the snow i put on lorrenas car. i had 100 snowball fights. i tackled 100 people into the snow. lorrena broke my sternum when she hit me while i was talking to carlo. dee terry tate'd feljohn. when all was said and done, i was frozen. i sat in my car for a long time. changed my clothes. turned the heat all the way up and just relaxed. it was a chance to put it all into perspective.

we just might be ok, after all.

-Dan.

Thursday, December 17, 2009

i am going so raw.

watch me soy sauce wasabi with.
noble on the protools hot as H.E. double hockey sticks.

i took my first final and finished my last english essay.

what's left?
chem lab.
chem homework.
a&p final.
chem final.
trig final.

-Dan.

Wednesday, December 16, 2009

mw2.

mad people play this joint.

i'm trying to set up an epic NESB v. SESB when i get back from vacation.

-Dan.

Monday, December 14, 2009

30 minutes.

i finished my essay early.
it's 1:15.
i have til 1:45 to do nothing.

-----------------------

30 minutes of nothing.
30 minutes of freedom is my whole world.
who cares if my essay is in terrible quality.
i won't let my printer being a dick bother me.
done. that's all it's got to be.
my composition teachers gonna kick me a lot of heat.

but me? i'll just kick pipe dreams around.
like how i just won the lottery.
and alicia keys just came over
and whispered in my ear that she's a big fan of sodomy.
life's a road trip,
and there's a whole lot i want to see.

come with me.
to the sun rise and set from the panama canal.
the pyramids of eygpt.
the safaris of south africa.
and the northern lights.
the city of venice.
the city of paris.
the city of tokyo.
the city of new york.
i'd love to see the sights.
from there to ayers rock
to see the constellations shining bright.
we can be in all of these places today
through the poems i write.

i'll see you there tonight.
yes or no.
i'll just lay in my hammock made of banana leaves.
and let the flow take me where i got to go.
in style.
wherever the rivers crawl.
down the nile.
off niagra falls.
just to drown in great lake michigan.
i bet they'll all miss me then.
but by then, i've seen everything there is to see,
and so it ends.

i got to get ready for school.

-Dan.


ENEMY OF THE STATE:

a love story.

lupe the fiasco's new mixtape. it's pretty good.

i hate how people spell definitely 'definately' and lose 'loose'. bothered.

i'm writing an essay about cigarettes. butter.

it's going to be a long week. i'm sweating the 4 finals i'm taking this week. i have devotional every day. i have to perform straight on wednesday. but once this week is over, easy street.

off to chicago. house lights. bravo!

i wish i could blog about more meaningful things, but my head is wrapped around school and church too much for me to get all abstract and philosophical. for now, i'll keep focusing on the concrete things in my life.

all in all, life is good.

-Dan.

Saturday, December 5, 2009

snow.

cws activity.
snow.
chicago, soon.
school almost done. disappointing first semester. chronic underachiever.

-Dan.

Wednesday, December 2, 2009

As of this point,

My grades are alright. A's and B's.

My poetry project is too cheesy, hence I have to scrap a lot of the poems. I'm trying to get used to typing grammatically correct for my project.

We have a new minister. I'm going to be seeing him pretty soon. I'm off to church.

Till next time. Cheers.

-Dan.

Monday, November 30, 2009

A COMPILATION OF SHIT I WROTE.

that's the title of the book i'm writing.

:)

-Dan.

Monday, November 23, 2009

busy weekend.

friday.
practice. guarded til around 1 am. broke in my new suit for saturday.

saturday.
special service in elizbeth. mitsuwa. ronick was like 'it's getting so hot in here.' a few minutes after some dude did the chick flip w. his hair. nice.

sunday.
church. went home w. mikey. rode to south street w. lorrena. fries from ishkabibbles and yogurt @ phileo. we made lorrena drive in circles. watched part of the game @ dee's relative's house.

monday.
i spent the whole period working on a math exam. i have no idea how i did. hopefully, not terrible. we have a final coming up that is 30% of our grade. jeez. tomorrow is the last day of school before thanksgiving break.

needless to say, i can't wait. thanksgiving @ my house. woot woot.

-Dan.

Tuesday, November 17, 2009

i <3 huckabees.

did i really just watch that in my english class? yes.

postmodernism. so that's been the concept i've been thinking of. the relation of everything. the blanket effect. a deeper meaning because everything is connected. in the beginning of the movie, i was sincerely interested in learning more about this ideology.

but then the movie, i thought, was just making a mockery of it. it's made my search for connecting the dots look more idiotic than anything else. Everythings connected so nothing is connected to everything and all that mumbo jumbo. maybe life just is what it is. or maybe i shouldn't be so easily swayed by one directors speculation on the meaning of life.

anyways, the soundtrack from the movie is dope as fuhg.

mark wahlberg is funny as hell.

that's that.

-Dan.

Sunday, November 15, 2009

manny.

the legend got it in, tonight.

-Dan.

Wednesday, November 11, 2009

boys are from jupiter.

nothing is a matter of 'if' i can do it. it's just a matter of 'when'.

next semester looks like it's going to be...

a&p II.
chem II.
calculus I.
psychology.
photography.

-Dan.

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

mw2.


Call of Duty: Modern Warfare 2.

mom bought it for joshua.

this, certainly, isn't going to help my grades.

BUT, i did manage to get a 91 on my a&p exam.

so maybe i should reward myself. :)
i want to eat @ tokyo near the mall.

-Dan.

Monday, November 9, 2009

Helvetica.

i'm SO content.

today, in english,

i learned what: quotationalism, hyperironism, juxtaposition, and intertextuality mean!

brilliant. also, i watched a documentary called Helvetica about fonts.

but maybe the deeper meaning is the fickleness of human nature and it's conformity or lack there of to norms.

Sociology is very interesting.

I've got algebra HW to stuggle w. i need a tutor.

i got an 84 on the test i thought i bombed, somehow.

-Dan.

tyreke evans

is getting it in! :)

i want to try the new tokyo buffet.

essay due tomorrow.

-Dan.

Wednesday, November 4, 2009

gah jeez.

the bad:
i got an 81 on my chem exam.
pretty sure i just bombed my algebra exam.

the good:
100 on the algebra quiz.
90 on the a&p pratical.
96 on my soc exam.

it's looking like i'm going to get a B in chem... depending on how i did on that algebra exam, the same can be said.

working on an english narrative due tomorrow.

performing straight today.

i'm so consumed w. school, when i think about all the things going on in my life, i just think about grades. sigh.

i'm not one to stress usually, but i guess when it rains, it pours. *shrugs*.

---
on to another note, w. less anxiety involved, i want to grow a beard. looking fresh as a fuhg, i might add. um. idk if i'll ever be able to, but i'll keep trying. rogaine. something. viagra. whatever it takes to get my beard game on. testastarone filled brownies? ok. i'll do it, dude.

i know things will only get better from here.

-Dan.

Thursday, October 29, 2009

impression.

i got a new phone. it's called the impression. gay name but cool phone.







i just started my accelerated 8 week english class. my friends friend named phil is in it. random.


speaking of phils, (i know. it's like i planned it.) the phillies won game 1 of the world series last night.


stephen curry made his nba debut. i wish i had nba league pass. but this first week of the nba season, it's free. so i'm gonna cheese it.


i got a 100 on my algebra quiz. i hope i got a 100 on my sociology exam.


tomorrow is my chemistry exam and my a&p practical. i'm not really studying.
i need a 95+ on my chem exam, because those morning exam questions are killing me and i only got an 87 on my first exam.


pressure.


bay,
top priority.
peace before everything.
God before anything.
love before anything.
real before everything.
home before any place.
truth before anything.
style n state radiate.
love, power slay the hate.
priority.


-Dan.

Wednesday, October 28, 2009

101.

on my soc. exam. *giggles*

---
yesterday. the nba season started.
note:greg oden got 7 TO's. my nigga.



anyways, on another note,

i got a suprise call from a friend in need.
it was interesting to say the least.
sigh.
---

i'm beginning my english class tomorrow.
accelerated. :O how intimidating.
---
i can't help but count the days,
til i can be w. her.
waiting all of this time.
cause i know that she's on of a kind.
no other girl compares to her.
she's the most beautiful.

so i dream about the places that i love the most.
and that's next to her.
i wanna be next to her.
but i can't so i day dream.
thinking bout her.
dreamin bout her, lately.
she's always on my mind.
everytime i close my eyes.
daydream.
sick and tired of always waiting.
so maybe i can find.
a way to waste my time.
til i find her.


-Dan.

Sunday, October 25, 2009

bouts to get it in.

algebra quiz on monday.
sociology exam on wednesday.
a & p practical on friday.
chemistry exam on friday.

i want 4 a's.

-Dan.

Tuesday, October 20, 2009

if your cookie is in 3 pieces

the answer is no.

a great chinese proverb...

today, i...

went to class.

went to chris' house.

watched his soccer game.

went home/devo.

went to wasabi.

t'was fun. a nice little break from school.

edit__

i acquired al jefferson, stephen jackson, tyreke evans

and lost roy, redd, hawes, hibbert, jennings.

and i picked up speights and CDR. :O

-Dan.

Monday, October 19, 2009

98

on my algebra exam.

that's more like it. :)

thank God.

-Dan.

Thursday, October 15, 2009

Education.
They say it’s
So imperative to me.
And if that’s not my belief,
I’m running in a detrimental direction.
Away from the things I aspire to achieve.
I see and half-heartedly,
I agree.

But this isn’t what I imagined.
This isn’t what I dreamed.
An education at GCC?
This is key?
This is key.
And keys open doors.
But if all along, I was supposed to go
Through a door.
Then what do
‘Windows of opportunity’ exist for?

How am I to make a difference?
They tell you to dream big as a child.
But when you grow up,
The world teaches you to forget what you’ve envisioned.

I wanted to be an artist.
I wanted to inspire.
Be admired.
Show the world through my eyes.
But that won’t give me the life that I desire.

Why the hell should I go to med school?
A question with no concrete answer.
A dilemma ensues.
Caught between two twos.
Either I Lose.
Or I Lose.

It’s just a reality we can’t deny.
We create our dreams,
Then watch them die
A slow and painful death.
We bury them.
Write them elegies.
We Cry.
We Regret.

The sad truth is that it’s time to forget
The things I’ll write.
The things I haven’t thought up yet.
The things I wish I was.
The things that I believed.
All the things I love.
Because none of these will ever be.

My contributions to this world
Will be forgotten before they were ever learned.

A tired poet sets down his pen.
Buries his own hopes.
Prays. And waits for the end.

-Dan.

Wednesday, October 14, 2009

ms. hughes hooked me up.

she called the dean and everything.

thank God.

quite the wake up call. i'll say that much.

-Dan.

Friday, October 9, 2009

i think we're live again.

i'll keep it simple.

school is a whore.
nba2k10 is a great video game.
i want to write poems.

-Dan.

Saturday, October 3, 2009

practice. cielo and ed's bday. tomorrow.

we did our fbball draft like two days ago.
i'm gonna post the draft recap and keep the transactions up on this bad boy. for retrospect purposes.

today, i went to a buffet for eduardo and cielos bday. then i went to the movies w. annleigh, steve, feljohn, and lorrena. we watched Capitalism: A Love Story. it was a good documentary. we're supposed to play football tomorrow. will we? hopefully.

friday was a good practice. there are a lot of times when i feel lost in choir. i'm not exactly musically inclined. that's putting it lightly. but i feel like when i'm singing for God and nothing else is on my mind, i do a lot better. my duty is a gift.

ROUND 1
1Al Jefferson, Min C KTHE RONICK
2Allen Iverson, Mem SG KTEAM DEE
3Elton Brand, Phi PF KTEAM christopher
4Dwyane Wade, Mia SG Kalpha squad.
5Kevin Garnett*, Bos PF KTEAM FELJOHN
6Antawn Jamison, Was PF KTEAM CARLO
7Dirk Nowitzki, Dal PF KTEAM STEVE
8Chris Paul, Nor PG KI AM GLADIATOR
9Amare Stoudemire, Pho C KPAMPATAKAW! ......
10Steve Nash, Pho PG KThe A's
ROUND 2
11Stephen Jackson, GS SG KTHE RONICK
12Marcus Camby, LAC C KTEAM DEE
13Rashard Lewis, Orl SF KTEAM christopher
14Dwight Howard, Orl C Kalpha squad.
15Paul Pierce, Bos SF KTEAM FELJOHN
16O.J. Mayo, Mem SG KTEAM CARLO
17Vince Carter, Orl SG KTEAM STEVE
18Chris Bosh, Tor PF KI AM GLADIATOR
19Andre Iguodala, Phi SG KPAMPATAKAW! ......
20Chauncey Billups, Den PG KThe A's
ROUND 3
21Joe Johnson, Atl SG KTHE RONICK
22Jose Calderon, Tor PG KTEAM DEE
23Kevin Love, Min PF KTEAM christopher
24Brandon Roy, Por SG Kalpha squad.
25Jason Richardson, Pho SG KTEAM FELJOHN
26Derrick Rose, Chi PG KTEAM CARLO
27Hedo Turkoglu, Tor SF KTEAM STEVE
28Brook Lopez, NJ C KI AM GLADIATOR
29Pau Gasol, LAL PF KPAMPATAKAW! ......
30Kevin Durant, OKC SG KThe A's
ROUND 4
31Andris Biedrins, GS C KTHE RONICK
32Devin Harris, NJ PG KTEAM DEE
33Al Thornton, LAC SF KTEAM christopher
34Rajon Rondo, Bos PG Kalpha squad.
35Richard Hamilton, Det SG KTEAM FELJOHN
36Russell Westbrook, OKC PG KTEAM CARLO
37Al Horford, Atl C KTEAM STEVE
38Anthony Randolph, GS PF KI AM GLADIATOR
39Josh Smith, Atl PF KPAMPATAKAW! ......
40Monta Ellis, GS PG KThe A's
ROUND 5
41Eric Gordon, LAC SG KTHE RONICK
42Zach Randolph, Mem PF KTEAM DEE
43Andrea Bargnani, Tor PF KTEAM christopher
44LaMarcus Aldridge, Por PF Kalpha squad.
45Mehmet Okur, Uta C KTEAM FELJOHN
46Carmelo Anthony, Den SF KTEAM CARLO
47Gilbert Arenas, Was PG KTEAM STEVE
48Deron Williams, Uta PG KI AM GLADIATOR
49Tony Parker, SA PG KPAMPATAKAW! ......
50David Lee, NY PF KThe A's
ROUND 6
51LeBron James, Cle SFTHE RONICK
52Danny Granger, Ind SFTEAM DEE
53Kobe Bryant, LAL SGTEAM christopher
54Blake Griffin, LAC PFalpha squad.
55Tim Duncan, SA CTEAM FELJOHN
56Carlos Boozer, Uta PFTEAM CARLO
57David West, Nor PFTEAM STEVE
58Jason Kidd, Dal PGI AM GLADIATOR
59Troy Murphy, Ind PFPAMPATAKAW! ......
60Emeka Okafor, Nor CThe A's
ROUND 7
61Gerald Wallace, Cha SFThe A's
62Kevin Martin*, Sac SGPAMPATAKAW! ......
63Ben Gordon, Det SGI AM GLADIATOR
64Caron Butler, Was SFTEAM STEVE
65Baron Davis, LAC PGTEAM CARLO
66Nene, Den CTEAM FELJOHN
67Rudy Gay, Mem SFalpha squad.
68Jameer Nelson, Orl PGTEAM christopher
69Andrew Bynum, LAL CTEAM DEE
70Mario Chalmers, Mia PGTHE RONICK
ROUND 8
71Jeff Green, OKC SFTHE RONICK
72Al Harrington, NY PFTEAM DEE
73Ray Allen, Bos SGTEAM christopher
74Michael Redd*, Mil SGalpha squad.
75Mo Williams, Cle PGTEAM FELJOHN
76Thaddeus Young, Phi SFTEAM CARLO
77Tyrus Thomas, Chi PFTEAM STEVE
78Ron Artest, LAL SFI AM GLADIATOR
79Andre Miller, Por PGPAMPATAKAW! ......
80Shaquille O'Neal, Cle CThe A's
ROUND 9
81Boris Diaw*, Cha PFThe A's
82Charlie Villanueva, Det PFPAMPATAKAW! ......
83Luis Scola, Hou PFI AM GLADIATOR
84John Salmons, Chi SGTEAM STEVE
85Jason Terry, Dal SGTEAM CARLO
86Shawn Marion, Dal SFTEAM FELJOHN
87Manu Ginobili*, SA SGalpha squad.
88Paul Millsap, Uta PFTEAM christopher
89Josh Howard*, Dal SGTEAM DEE
90Andrew Bogut*, Mil CTHE RONICK
ROUND 10
91Chris Duhon, NY PGTHE RONICK
92Tyson Chandler*, Cha CTEAM DEE
93Trevor Ariza, Hou SFTEAM christopher
94Greg Oden, Por Calpha squad.
95Francisco Garcia, Sac SFTEAM FELJOHN
96Rasheed Wallace, Bos CTEAM CARLO
97J.R. Smith, Den SGTEAM STEVE
98T.J. Ford, Ind PGI AM GLADIATOR
99Mike Conley, Mem PGPAMPATAKAW! ......
100Jamal Crawford, Atl SGThe A's
ROUND 11
101Richard Jefferson, SA SFThe A's
102Andrei Kirilenko, Uta SFPAMPATAKAW! ......
103Samuel Dalembert, Phi CI AM GLADIATOR
104D.J. Augustin, Cha PGTEAM STEVE
105Nate Robinson, NY PGTEAM CARLO
106Raymond Felton, Cha PGTEAM FELJOHN
107Stephen Curry, GS PGalpha squad.
108Lou Williams, Phi PGTEAM christopher
109Mike Bibby, Atl PGTEAM DEE
110Lamar Odom, LAL PFTHE RONICK
ROUND 12
111Jonny Flynn, Min PGTHE RONICK
112Hasheem Thabeet, Mem CTEAM DEE
113Chris Kaman, LAC CTEAM christopher
114Spencer Hawes*, Sac Calpha squad.
115Ramon Sessions, Min PGTEAM FELJOHN
116Jermaine O'Neal, Mia CTEAM CARLO
117Rodney Stuckey, Det PGTEAM STEVE
118Leandro Barbosa, Pho SGI AM GLADIATOR
119Joakim Noah, Chi CPAMPATAKAW! ......
120Tayshaun Prince, Det SFThe A's
ROUND 13
121Rafer Alston, NJ PGThe A's
122Mike Dunleavy*, Ind SGPAMPATAKAW! ......
123Peja Stojakovic, Nor SFI AM GLADIATOR
124Wilson Chandler, NY SFTEAM STEVE
125Courtney Lee, NJ SGTEAM CARLO
126Brad Miller, Chi CTEAM FELJOHN
127Aaron Brooks, Hou PGalpha squad.
128Michael Beasley, Mia PFTEAM christopher
129Zydrunas Ilgauskas, Cle CTEAM DEE
130Kenyon Martin, Den PFTHE RONICK
ROUND 14
131Tyreke Evans, Sac PGTHE RONICK
132Ronnie Brewer, Uta SGTEAM DEE
133Luol Deng*, Chi SFTEAM christopher
134Brandon Jennings, Mil PGalpha squad.
135Kirk Hinrich, Chi SGTEAM FELJOHN
136James Harden, OKC SGTEAM CARLO
137Mike Miller, Was SGTEAM STEVE
138Marc Gasol, Mem CI AM GLADIATOR
139Grant Hill, Pho SFPAMPATAKAW! ......
140Brendan Haywood, Was CThe A's
ROUND 15
141Jason Thompson, Sac PFThe A's
142Shane Battier*, Hou SFPAMPATAKAW! ......
143Ben Wallace, Det CI AM GLADIATOR
144Kendrick Perkins, Bos CTEAM STEVE
145Tracy McGrady*, Hou SGTEAM CARLO
146Randy Foye, Was SGTEAM FELJOHN
147Roy Hibbert, Ind Calpha squad.
148Tyler Hansbrough*, Ind PFTEAM christopher
149Kelenna Azubuike, GS SFTEAM DEE
150Robin Lopez, Pho CTHE RONICK

-Dan.