the big picture.

This is everything i've learned in my entire life summed up in a few sentences:

Put God first. Don't try to solve your own problems, pray God will solve them for you. Chase what lasts forever. Nothing in this life lasts forever. Be humble. Be thankful. Don't be impulsive.

That's all. In order to achieve the first 4 sentences, you must follow the fifth.

Humility. Recently, we recieved a lecture about humility. It encompasses so many different elements. All of which are essential to me, in becoming the the man that I want to be.

Never put myself first. Put God first. Satan offered Christ all the kingdoms of this world. Satan will offer me everything I could ever want in this life. Success. Women. Money. A happy life.

But I will deny myself. chasing worldly things is the same thing as chasing the moment. Why only live in the moment, when you can live forever?

Humility is about sacrifice. It's about not pursuing my best interests, if they're not in the best interests of God.

They want this material thing. That material thing. I don't want any of that, so they tell me to dream bigger.

My dreams ARE bigger. I'm chasing something greater. What I'm chasing is above it all. That's why I'm here. This IS my big picture. Success here in this world, would be nice. But, man, I have bigger fish to fry.

Besides, I have the All Powerful, on my side. So even if life is harder this way, I'll be alleviated.

It's not about having the Good Life. It's about having the Eternal Life. Blessed.

-Dan.

one of those days.

can i get a cheese burger w. extra doubt? today is one of those days w. no direction. it's the day where you know everything that has to be done, but none of it feels like it's worth doing. it's one of those days where it feels like nothings going right and there's there's too much on my plate, when in reality, there's nothing wrong. nothings happening to me. my life is grand. but that's not how it feels. it's one of those days where it's just really empty. there's an anxiety. but amidst all this, there's a calm.

there's an uneasiness about it. my stomach is turning. it's the same feeling i get when someone is chasing me in my dreams. needless to say, i'm asking the same questions.

"why can't i just get away from all this?"
"why is this happenings to me?"
"how do i make things better?"

but when i stop, above my panting from the chase, i can hear the whistle of the wind. it's one of those days where you take everything in. it's one of those days where everything has more meaning. this is what it means to feel. the pain always hits home harder than the joy. the pain is deeper. the pain is more heartfelt. this is what it is to feel. this is what it is to be human. this is life in this world.

everyones running away from nothing.

one day, we're all going to wake up. most people will find that Satan didn't pay the electric bill, so there won't be any air conditioning for a while. a long while.

hopefully, when i wake up it'll be w. all my loved ones. i'll be in the crowd in the clouds, when i open my eyes for the first time.

what's wrong w. me? i think it's just one of those days.

thank God i have church tomorrow.

-Dan.

ffxiii

i copped final fantasy thirteen last night. vanille is hawt.

o.O'

-Dan.

east coast rappist.

j-butter, did i stutter?

i haven't blogged cause it was devo week and i had bigger things on my mind.
to make this quick...
-holy supper was good.
-pacman beating cheeks.
-feljohn is back.
-we played basketball @ widener yesterday. good ol' fashioned east coast rapping.
-we went to ritas. it wasn't raining, but we got our buy one, get one free, ya deg.
-i have the gayest lab to do over my spring break.
-wasabi on tuesday. rick bobby status.

-Dan.

fri-sat.

i guarded friday night w. steve and ronick. an ambulance scared me. i thought it was sopranos singing in black togas doing a processional march @ 3 am, so i fell out of bed. sakit.

on saturday, i woke up for devo. went to get breakfast @ dennys, cleaned the chapel, then slept till final practice. then after that, we went to winslow diner and i stayed till PM devo. idk why. i'm cool. now i'm home and tomorrow morning i have church. splendid.

-Dan.

catch me i'm balling.

i don't flow.
i dictate. stalin.

quit biting like dracula.
take ya beef and flip it
like sponge bobs spatula.

i'm happy. :D i've been w. aprille for 30 months and 1 day.

-Dan.